~ 1:50pm
I slept for 7 1/2 hours last night, although I went to bed after my bedtime. Yet, here I am, feeling completely drained around 2pm. I skipped caffeine this morning because I’ve been trying to avoid addiction.
But what other options do I have? How can I feel like a rejuvenated 20-something again? Am I seeping into depression? How long will this last?
Maybe I need to take a quick break from remote work and get some outside air. A step on the balcony or a quick mailbox visit should give me enough time to feel today’s sun and marvel at the ocean blue sky.
Speaking of the sun, I made it my thing to remember my mom whenever the sun shines. I like to believe the sun represents her smile, a reminder that she’s still proud of me, even when I feel like I’m close to emotionally shutting down. The sun lets me know that there is still beauty in the world. There are still warm days, and the clouds won’t always rain on me or my spirit.
I will be okay. I can make it through this!
~ 2:25pm
I just took out the trash. While the sun warmed my chocolate skin, and my eyes witnessed a pure sky, my feet narrowly avoided squashing a butterfly. I found this little guy camped out near the dumpster, flapping his multicolored wings.
I’m so glad I went out today!
Kee Grieves 